We moved

The last two weeks have been full of upheaval, change, struggle, stress, and grace. Last Monday I dragged myself from under the bedcovers I wanted to hide under to go shopping for food we needed if we wanted to eat. I was willing to go hungry if I could just hide, but didn't think the kids would like that plan. Then I broke down crying in the van after the checkout clerk asked if I liked the snow (which somehow unleashed all my stress and  sorrow and fears and lonely feelings). It wasn't a great day. Or week for that matter, the kids home all day, their own stress at change without school or their stuff around, looking for houses. It seemed like I was going nonstop, trying to sort out moving stuff, with kids usual chatter turning into bedlam with tight quarters and no books/toys. I knew I couldn't do it anymore. I just didn't have the strength, patience, and was still grieving.
With all the stress I had missed several days of studying scriptures, which I know is the exact thing i need, but it still  happens. I was exhausted, and what I could do wasn't enough. So that night I prayed and pleaded for the strength I need that I don't have. And I got it. isn't that so amazing :) !? The next day as I read scriptures, it was exactly what I needed to hear, and I was gently chastened for focusing on my troubles instead of on Christ. And that has made all the difference, as it does every time. Sure I still struggle, the kids still argue and get bored, but this week has been a lot better.
We've had our favorite Eliane's french pastries,

 visited the Bean Life museum, and Provo Beach resort's indoor playground and arcade, and the BYU library, which has all been fun. The kids were so funny at the life museum, they kept saying "Mom, don't look over here!" "mom, don't look over there!", as there were scenes of predators capturing prey everywhere, like I wouldn't like it or couldn't handle it. Not sure what they think of me :)
They really enjoyed those though. Aubree's favorite were the huge giraffes and the zebra.

Cameron's favorites were the giant squid and hammerhead shark. Grace liked the baby muskox, and crocodile, while Reese liked the grizzly bear attacking a moose and lion attacking an impala.

Run away!!

 I was surprised by the grizzly/moose display, then read in the placard 'grizzlies don't usually attack moose'. rather misleading, but it does look impressive.
RD and I can check books out from BYU's library, and they have a huge juvenile section. We needed more bags. We're excited about access to that. The books helped with keeping kids occupied for a day or two. While we were there we visited the 'minecraft deer',

Too bright to look!

 the RB and cougar,

 and Cosmo.

BYU's going to be great.   
So we're still trying to figure out where to put the kids into school, house, loan, and all the associated inspection/insurance stress, finding out our security deposit was used up to fix up all the stuff wrong with the house we rented they wouldn't fix while we lived there, and being in a new place. But it's been ok, and I even had/have dinners planned for all week! That is way more pulled together than I usually am. And that is a blessing,  a gift of God's love and atoning power.